Similarity and collaboration among narcissism and bipolar vainglory. Somebody who presents with narcissistic identity attributes can be hard to recognize from somebody who is encountering mellow to direct hypomania (bipolar inclination rise less intense than full craziness) with the pompous view of self.
Now I have a very great experience with a narcissist, and I am just sharing this to clarify how these people exactly function. But if you are thinking of sympathizing then don’t. I have already overcome it and I am glad that I had experienced it.
I won’t go into all the details but just to keep it short, he was staying at our house as a friend because his office was far from his house and our was near. Many things happened, it became verbal, then physical abuse. He had frustration over me about certain things, the biggest issue was I never got sexually involved with him. He had an issue that my best friend is a guy. I never uttered anything. He burnt my feet once then there are several cut marks on my left arm which he did with the knife. There is a mark of a stab of the left arm beside the bullet mark. Often my classmates would point out fingerprints on my neck, arms. He hit on my arms, legs but never on my face. He had an issue when I accomplished something, he showed me off as a trophy, and he felt as if he owned me. At least I am lucky he never raped me to be extremely honest.
Weirdly, I never made a sound, there were no trace of sadness, or anything when he used to torture me. I remember when he burnt my feet and cut my arms once and sprinkled salt over it, it hurt like hell but I did not react, it angered him more.
I never intended to tell my dad about whatever was going on with me because my dad would kill him, and moreover dad was already unwell. I never told my best friend too because he lost his dad that year and I did not want him to bother. Actually, I never wanted people around me to be in trouble so I kept it to myself.
It continued for 4 months, exact 4 months 13 days. One evening dad came back to town and asked him to empty our house then and there. He tried reasoning with my dad but my dad did not listen or discuss anything. He did not try to talk to me and left. I was relieved. After he left my dad told me that a classmate of mine told him that I was in a forceful and abusive relationship and the exact reason why I never told my dad. My dad even used his contacts to get B fired from his work. Moreover, dad was upset with me and did not talk to me for a month. ☹
However, B tried to contact me but could not, rather I should say I did not respond. After I turned 21 I bought my own condo and moved out of my house. One of my old classmates who knew him when they met each other accidently in a coffee shop he asked her about me and when she told about me moving out at my own place his mouth dropped.
In 2016 when my dad died and after 20 days when everyone came to know that he contacted me my email. I mocked my father’s death and said that I deserved to be an orphan. Usually, it is impossible to hurt me but those words affected me. I slit my wrist and tried to drown myself in my bathtub, (yes the same bathtub that you have seen on my Instagram. My maid saved me. It was as if those words stuck in my head and again I tried to commit suicide by gulping sleeping pills, this time I was in Greece for some work. Again I don’t know how I was saved. I became suicidal. I tried talking to my senior doctors but I could not speak out about my problems with them. I was counseled by my business partner. He kind of saved me.
I never knew that being in a relationship with a narcissist would affect me so bad. He is the reason I don’t feel pain or hurt anymore. He was the reason that I had started analyzing everyone. He stopped contacting me after my accident in May ’17.
Narcissistic relationships tend to be very challenging. Narcissistic partners usually have difficulty really loving someone else, because they don’t truly love themselves. They are so focused on themselves that they cannot really “see” their partner as a separate person. Ending a relationship with a narcissist is incredibly difficult, for many reasons.
Narcissistic partners don’t want to let their prey go easily. I believe that there is no point in running away from a narsistic partner, just face them. No matter what just face them for your sake atleast.
Stay safe, take care.