Similarity and collaboration among narcissism and bipolar vainglory. Somebody who presents with narcissistic identity attributes can be hard to recognize from somebody who is encountering mellow to direct hypomania (bipolar inclination rise less intense than full craziness) with the pompous view of self.
Now I have a very great experience with a narcissist, and I am just sharing this to clarify how these people exactly function. But if you are thinking of sympathizing then don’t. I have already overcome it and I am glad that I had experienced it.
I won’t go into all the details but just to keep it short, It was just after my mom died this guy was staying at our house as a friend because his office was far from his house and our house was near. Many things happened, it became verbal, then physical abuse. He had frustration over me about certain things, the biggest issue was I never got sexually involved with him. He also had an issue that my best friend is a guy. I was tortured on a daily basis. He burnt my feet once then there are several cut marks on my left arm which he did with the knife. There is a mark of a stab of the left arm beside the bullet mark. Often my classmates would point out fingerprints on my neck, arms. He hit on my arms, legs but never on my face. He had an issue when I accomplished something, he showed me off as a trophy, and he behaved as if he owned me. At least I am lucky he never raped me to be extremely honest. Later things got bad and I had to tell my dad.
In 2016 when my dad died and after 20 days when everyone came to know that, he contacted me via email. He mocked my father’s death and said that I deserved to be an orphan. Usually, it is impossible to hurt me but those words affected me. I slit my wrist and tried to drown myself in my bathtub but I was saved. It was as if those words stuck in my head and again I tried to commit suicide again by gulping sleeping pills. I was saved again. I became suicidal. I tried talking to my senior doctors but I could not speak out about my problems with them. A good friend of mine counselled me.
I never knew that being in a relationship with a narcissist would affect me so bad. He is the reason that now no matter how much pain is inflicted upon me they don’t hurt me anymore. He stopped contacting me after my accident in May ’17.
Narcissistic relationships tend to be very challenging. Narcissistic partners usually have difficulty really loving someone else, because they don’t truly love themselves. They are so focused on themselves that they cannot really “see” their partner as a separate person. Ending a relationship with a narcissist is incredibly difficult, for many reasons.
Narcissistic partners don’t want to let their prey go easily. I believe that there is no point in running away from a narcissistic partner, just face them. No matter what just face them for your sake atleast.
I guess, that’s all for today.
Stay safe, take care.